Considering the fact that my closet is running out of space for clothes (despite recently going through an organization project to make more room, and the fact that I can no longer stuff t-shirts into my dresser drawers (and I feel like I don't have any clothes!), K's Naked Lady Party could not have come at a better time. As I'm going through my overstuffed drawer of t-shirts, sorting them into different piles - sorority shirts, race shirts, workout shirts, etc - I come across a few items that go into the donate pile, but one in particular just sits in limbo.
It's actually been in limbo for the past two years.
It's X's shirt. The shirt I proudly kidnapped from him knowing it was his favorite (when we were dating it was like a game of hide and seek). The shirt I tried to give back to him during the breakup. And the same shirt he told me to keep because he knew I loved it (seriously, he broke up with me, do you think I really would have been sad if I lost the shirt too?).
After the breakup, I'll admit, I wore it often. I wasn't ready to let go, and it was really the only thing I had that had any sentimental value. Never mind the fact that I still have his mini grill or all the random little things he bought me, the shirt was the only thing that I tried to hold on to that he let me keep. Plus I wore it often enough that it became the most comfortable shirt I owned. But after awhile, I learned to let go of the relationship but the shirt was still my favorite thing to sleep in. After awhile it lost its sentimental value and just became a favorite. And then after awhile it found a permanent spot at the bottom of my dresser drawer.
I've gone through a few closet clean outs since then but couldn't ever really bear to give it away. I didn't really know why. I'm over him, all feelings are gone, and to be honest, I really don't care if I never speak to X again. If I gave the shirt back, then there would be some kind of contact being made (we don't speak, and if I gave it back I would give it to his brother) and he might ask for other things back (aka, grill!). There is no hatred towards him whatsoever, but like I mentioned, he's not someone I care about anymore. But then I would feel bad for giving it away, because it was a favorite. Then again if he hasn't missed it these past two years, he wouldn't give a shit whether or not he had it. Plus that's what happens with breakups, you lose stuff.
And I think that's the reason I still have the shirt. I don't know what to do with it.
It's actually been in limbo for the past two years.
It's X's shirt. The shirt I proudly kidnapped from him knowing it was his favorite (when we were dating it was like a game of hide and seek). The shirt I tried to give back to him during the breakup. And the same shirt he told me to keep because he knew I loved it (seriously, he broke up with me, do you think I really would have been sad if I lost the shirt too?).
After the breakup, I'll admit, I wore it often. I wasn't ready to let go, and it was really the only thing I had that had any sentimental value. Never mind the fact that I still have his mini grill or all the random little things he bought me, the shirt was the only thing that I tried to hold on to that he let me keep. Plus I wore it often enough that it became the most comfortable shirt I owned. But after awhile, I learned to let go of the relationship but the shirt was still my favorite thing to sleep in. After awhile it lost its sentimental value and just became a favorite. And then after awhile it found a permanent spot at the bottom of my dresser drawer.
I've gone through a few closet clean outs since then but couldn't ever really bear to give it away. I didn't really know why. I'm over him, all feelings are gone, and to be honest, I really don't care if I never speak to X again. If I gave the shirt back, then there would be some kind of contact being made (we don't speak, and if I gave it back I would give it to his brother) and he might ask for other things back (aka, grill!). There is no hatred towards him whatsoever, but like I mentioned, he's not someone I care about anymore. But then I would feel bad for giving it away, because it was a favorite. Then again if he hasn't missed it these past two years, he wouldn't give a shit whether or not he had it. Plus that's what happens with breakups, you lose stuff.
And I think that's the reason I still have the shirt. I don't know what to do with it.
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